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TIME
What exaclty is "time"? Perhaps something you follow everyday by the ticking of your clock. I believe time is mans illusion created to set a direction in change, but I dont think the universe needs "time" for its changing process. Its something created to keep structure in the world and to prevent everything from happening all at once. It makes our lives the idea of order, constructs the past, present, and future. But would we really have no past, present or future without time? The past is only a collection of memories that we cant experience, we can only remember it. And we can only remember it in the present . Along with the future, it must be the "present" for us to experience it. Until then, it remains a hope or a dream. In the case of time being real we all have the same amount of days in a year, hours in a day, and minutes in a hour. But all at different rates around the world ? Ex. its Friday 9:50pm here in the United States, but in Japan its already Saturday 11:50 am .Now you ask yourself, did Japan already hit the future while your still stuck in the past? Perhaps it did, but only in the existence of illusion can this be possible. If time is constant time travel may be as well . Lets say your on a plane going to Japan and your birthday was tomorrow (Saturday) making it still Friday in the United States, but as soon as you hit japan you instantly become the next digit and age because its already Saturday there. By proceeding this you could say you have managed to eliminate "time" and speed up your age by a tick of a clock. You have subtracted hours that interfere with the minutes and days that make "time" flow in one direction. But wait, If we could speed up "time" can we slow it down and go back to your past when it was still Friday? Maybe take another plane ride to Apia where time compared to us here in America has not happened, yet underestimated the universes motion itself. Yes we humans have a notion of time but does the universe itself? My theory states otherwise. Information cant be stored when you move from the disordered side of the universal entropy gradient to the ordered side. There can be no perception in that direction being left with only memory of the past and lack of knowledge of the future. This indicates the concept of past, present, and future. And yes, "time". Only when the clock stops does time come to life.
With a calculator & chronic
111, 111, 111 X 111, 111, 111 = 12, 345, 678, 987, 654, 321
The end of the world ?
Alright, so lately all iv been hearing is this 2012 end of the world thing. I'm not saying its not possible , everything eventually comes to an end but just because the Mayan calendar ends on a certain date doesn't mean the world has to end as well. Have you ever thought maybe they got tired of writing the calendar for generations that do nothing but destroy the earth. It doesn't seem much fun to begin with, sorta like a never ending math class. And we thought double period's were boring. The world ending is in the hands of the human race, its among us to keep our planet alive. We humans have enough power and nuclear weapons to destroy our earth to dust. I always thought of the world ending by getting swallowed into a black hole. Why not ? it makes plenty of sense. Over time the sun gets stronger and stronger from chemical toxin's reaching an outrageous amount of mass and produces high flux of neutrons, eventually leading the core to collapse. Sooner or later the density will increase so high not making it able for the neutrinos to escape causing the sun to detonate. The sun will no longer be able to support itself and BANG ! it becomes a black hole as it explosively sheds the rest of its mass in a supernova. I mean if a star can do it I'm sure the sun can manage it as well . Where would we be without our sun ?
Beer and lifeThere's so much, so much to unload and unwind as if the definition of life is the string to an never ending yo-yo. How can a word with so much power have such a small definition to the eyes of most of the universe and dictionary. Life is more then just living and having an organ pump you alive, its about seeing beyond and feeling without physically being touched. Yes, life is only the amount of time your living according to the world but what if life is a dream. Its one big dream that no one really understands because we have it. We could do anything, go anywhere and feel any kind of pain or emotion physically and mentally but eventually it ends. It all ends just like a dream , maybe we wake up into reality. Things are never how they seem, this world looks to much into reality instead of realizing what might be behind it. Life could be the illusion, a rebound trick , it bounces right back because we leave this earth, we die we no longer are here its the illusion keeping us alive. Dreams are true, a dream is life.
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Perfect stranger
Saturday the fifth of January, 3:03 am . As i sit listening to the cars race by through the slushy five day old snow. Only having one thing on my mind, Colorado. Now don't be fooled Colorado is the perfect stranger ,turning letters into feeling that make all the black and white drip away .Everything in this world makes too much sense, and sometimes in life its not all that good. The only nonsensical thing is her and that doesn't require explanation because it's what makes her all the much better. You could leave, maybe even fade but the perfect stranger you will always remain .
ZYWIEC
The cause of and the solution to all life's problems. To make one think , wonder the elements beneath the soul, feel pain, gain joy, shaking your head with a smile saying," fuck it , one more cant hurt". But suddenly it hit's you. It was you that i hurt, sip after sip , shot after shot , my smile begins to dim down , the booze up heats my body mixed with the regret of cruelty towards you .
SOMEONE THAT I USE TO KNOW
As if all things in this world can add up to your minds equation. If only your heart can produce enough beats to not be able to skip one. If words can really express a type of feeling or color. If religion didn't have to interfere with feelings. But tonight i sit here and just like every other night my world still continues to go round. My words could have been spiteful and your heart may hurt.But when you fell to the ground i was there to pick you up. When you were hurting into yourself , i was there to kiss your arms. But I'm hurting and i fell. I fell so hard , and i cant find you because you left me on the floor. You no longer needed me to help you up, you no longer want your hands in my pocket. Traded us for another color to your spin. Your words are no longer meanings, and my pockets now have holes.But in the end I'm glad it wasn't me to walk away. And tonight's the saddest knowing that you let go. But the world keeps spinning round. And i forgive you , because i had to forgive myself .
MUSIC CLASS
I don't wanna be here and i don't want to sit here. This music drives me crazy and my thoughts are over taking me. Days like this feel forever and the hole in me gets deeper. Hold it back Marissa don't let such sad interfere. If things only made sense, if this music just stopped playing, if my heart was never big and my mind never their. Id erase my entire life if it means i wont ever feel. I don't know what I'm writing but i could feel the words are real. And time does not exist until the day i seem to heal, never choose to touch, i never want to know, i just want to block it out to the furthest it will go. My mind has lost control i don't know where to go. But it wasn't me , it wasn't me. I stayed i really did. Make me numb, turn me numb, erase it all away. I no longer want it, not even the days i stayed awake. Invisibility is where i fell into, its where i want to stay. Don't look back Marissa this is how it is, life is this and never that, don't turn your head because i cant afford to loose my track.
FAR
I could feel the endless ride to nowhere, somewhere so far. No world, no people, no city. But air, wind and land, lots of it. Such green grounds and open space. I don't mind the loneliness , appreciate it on such a day like this. I stand above the rest of the world. Drugged off
life. You think i can fly ? I think i can fly.
life. You think i can fly ? I think i can fly.
CARE
I hardly ever keep my hair up, my window is closed and my bed is naked with no sheets. My mind is racing and my heart is there, still. But I can feel,all of it. I could leave or i can stay , i could run or i can lay, lay where i am, in a room that's dead. A room that i no longer want to lay in . Sometimes i laugh , sometimes i flick the world off. If i smile then it was worth it, and when i cry, i cry. Tonight is dim and my eyes are swollen. A unnecessary movie soundtrack in playing in the background .I have the feeling of caring and all i want is for it to go away, far away from here, far away from me. I don't plan to return, all because of care .
Boardwalk
The sun is beaming and my extra large cup of boardwalk beer is getting warm , my mind is drunk and my body is wondering between the ways of the stands. " Eva been read before ." Says a woman sitting on a chair in the middle of a chaotic sidewalk. She had a high pitched voice, cowboy killer stogies, and a baby ready to be born. "No, i usually walk away once they ask me what you just did." i replied. I felt stuck, i wanted to walk away but my feet had hesitation and i was drunk, real drunk. "I look at your face and i can tell, it has a strong message, you pass by and i feel a vibe." she replied with such a way of honesty but i didn't care. "Don't bullshit me" i said. "Tell me what you know, tell me what the fuck you think you know." I didn't shout, nor did i feel anger, more like curiosity and a decision to listen to the truth or complete bullshit from a stranger. "You've been through a ditch. Someone took a lot of energy and love from you, they drained you, you cared and it took a lot of effort and time. It was brought back but you nor the other are able to express it." She said. I interrupted "Yea you mean i got fucked?" She looks at me with despair. "Yea, well energy, someone stole your energy right out of you. You tell people how it is instead of not at all .Your stubborn and are on the road of two great paths, but you will walk through fire in order to get there. And one you wont ever see due to others and their jealousy among you. You cant express love but your filled with it. I can keep going if you'd like." And that was her answer, that was her fucking definition of me. I reached for my wallet and gave her what was left in it, not much but it was what it was. " I don't want your money, your vibe was real." she said with a stare begging not to leave. "Well, i didn't ask for your reading, but it was real " i said. She smiled and i walked away. I walked far away .
Pieces
As if life made sense , as if it had to make sense. It's early , my hungry has turned into starvation and my mouth is still dry from the amount of last night's pot. The day seems clam by the look out the window, windy but calm. I am still me , i will always be I. To see a person you've grown to in complete form of something you never new , something they never were. Unrecognizable from the inside where the soul once layed is far by the saddest thing. Change is change, for us all . For the good and the bad , but to become change is only for the worst. This is not a judgement , I've been through the darkest and the brightest holes , my overall feelings have fallen , thoughts and sense of care have disappeared . But i am still me , i will always be i. Things inside me can change , my overall view can change, my appearance can change but i will never become change. So lady , you sold your soul for change, the soul we both new , the soul i still remember . And when i say this i mean it with every sense of the word. Steal your soul back before its really to late . This is my last about you .
Last Day Of June
Sand, sun, booze, pot, cousin and strangers . My day began hungover from the ridiculous amount of candy eaten the night before. Running on two hours of sleep and all that was left was a so called lucky 2 dollar bill in my wallet. So there i layed, on the sand making snow angels, gazing up in the sky on the last day of June. Fireworks caught off guard, cups cheering, stereo playing low, due to the laughs and conversations flowing loudly. The impeccable feeling of exchanging smiles with strangers. The seven of us with not a care in the world. We were company, company that marked the beach past dawn. Names weren't required neither was numbers of age. I wouldn't trade the last day of June for its first. Drained the bucket of water on to the cool beach, but the small neon green shovel was left buried halfway in the sand. We met as strangers and we left as strangers, all in different directions. What a beautiful last day of June.
One Tree
One tree stands tall from the view of my window, branches poking left and right, leaves dressing it in a form of symbolization. Trees are here and there, but most don't see they rather look . When one looks they tend to look away right after , not noticing the disguisable beauty a single tree may carry. This one particular tree my eye has been caught on has enough strength to keep me standing. As long as it stands, i stand as well. Through the storms, blizzards and sunshine this tree will never fall. It's branches may break and leaves blow away onto the bleak ground. My presence will leave at time to time but this one tree will always stand tall . You wont understand for you are not I , but those who see instead of look , will feel slightly different the next time they fall down .
Puzzle
Jersey to queens
Cuba, never seen
still the same cat from the last time you've seen
but this time my mentality has taken a tole
right past the ozone layer into a black hole
the way i lean is in front of it all
I'm the first domino so i effect all of ya'll
i came a long way but not long enough
ima hit every state and I'm not in a rush
for every state i pass through there's a different face
Angel had a pair of diamond eyes, came from costa rica
and was mighty fine, told me the music was where it
was at, and New York was her next track.
So let me see you roll it , walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it , as your facing it all
Down to Daytona where my brother is at, broke
into a hotel and threw a party at, bottles and weed,
no lightweights you see , eyes dazed and young minds
were hazed, flickering flashlights started roaming the place
5.0 bust threw, no one left in the abandoned hotel but the illegal fuels
Shorty left her gat and a bag with stolen gee's , all i kept thinking ;
was this bitch gonna shoot me?
running from the life going left and right
but never straight i don't flow that way
had a bitch once that played me that way.
but that was light , i had another one who
wanted to suck my brother left to right .
but then there was one who made me alright , she had
a mind but never was she mine, a highway view was the
last we kissed always seem drunk but i never missed.
So let me see you roll it, walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it, as your facing it all
But enough with the chicks no time for that shit
I'm taking this train to the declaration of independence
cause iv been on my own since i was 12
moms giving up and dad never showed
two older brothers that left because they were
scared , pissed off and just didn't care
Had a homie named Shevy back in 7th grade
that's where it started and i didn't blame
smoking boogies and spray painting school walls
breaking and entering shit we did it all
Until one summer Shevy left to Spain didn't see her again until the 7 train
doors closed right in front of our face
guess i was on the right track but on the wrong train
So let me see you roll it, walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it , as your facing it all
Always been free, ask lynard skynard you see
with the freebird lyrics tattooed on my neck at the age of 16
A age where nothing made sense , triple c's , lets pop eight at a time
acid and shrooms it was exploring time
two sips from being alcoholic almost all of the time
sleeping outside if nowhere to go
until i met my boy habibi you know?
it means 1 love , true boy till the end
use to chill in his pad and sniff a onion of coke to the head
until he got knocked, 15 to life , asked me to ring it
just to get rid of his immigrant flow and live a free life
but that wasn't for me , even if he gave me massive gees
i had shit of my own, problems unfold , if they send him
back to morocco i will never know
So let me see you roll it, walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it, as your facing it all
now it was my turn to be locked in a cell
got knocked by a undercover cop who thought was down
Next thing he says was "Put your hands on your head
and fall to the ground , your under arrest now stop fucking around"
i was doped , had my eyes marijuana smoked
until this day i lack of trust ,
cause shit gets harder before it stays hard
there's prices to pay and drugs cant sell it all
but i handle my own as the years start to grow
inhale what i need and exhale what i don't
right now i stand at the age of 19
with a flow no one owns
cause there's only one me
determination plus risk lies the best in me
seba blading , forever craving words no dictionary can explain to me
this is just a piece to a puzzle called my life , sometimes i give a fuck
other times i roll the dice
So let me see you roll it , walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it , as your facing it all
Cuba, never seen
still the same cat from the last time you've seen
but this time my mentality has taken a tole
right past the ozone layer into a black hole
the way i lean is in front of it all
I'm the first domino so i effect all of ya'll
i came a long way but not long enough
ima hit every state and I'm not in a rush
for every state i pass through there's a different face
Angel had a pair of diamond eyes, came from costa rica
and was mighty fine, told me the music was where it
was at, and New York was her next track.
So let me see you roll it , walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it , as your facing it all
Down to Daytona where my brother is at, broke
into a hotel and threw a party at, bottles and weed,
no lightweights you see , eyes dazed and young minds
were hazed, flickering flashlights started roaming the place
5.0 bust threw, no one left in the abandoned hotel but the illegal fuels
Shorty left her gat and a bag with stolen gee's , all i kept thinking ;
was this bitch gonna shoot me?
running from the life going left and right
but never straight i don't flow that way
had a bitch once that played me that way.
but that was light , i had another one who
wanted to suck my brother left to right .
but then there was one who made me alright , she had
a mind but never was she mine, a highway view was the
last we kissed always seem drunk but i never missed.
So let me see you roll it, walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it, as your facing it all
But enough with the chicks no time for that shit
I'm taking this train to the declaration of independence
cause iv been on my own since i was 12
moms giving up and dad never showed
two older brothers that left because they were
scared , pissed off and just didn't care
Had a homie named Shevy back in 7th grade
that's where it started and i didn't blame
smoking boogies and spray painting school walls
breaking and entering shit we did it all
Until one summer Shevy left to Spain didn't see her again until the 7 train
doors closed right in front of our face
guess i was on the right track but on the wrong train
So let me see you roll it, walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it , as your facing it all
Always been free, ask lynard skynard you see
with the freebird lyrics tattooed on my neck at the age of 16
A age where nothing made sense , triple c's , lets pop eight at a time
acid and shrooms it was exploring time
two sips from being alcoholic almost all of the time
sleeping outside if nowhere to go
until i met my boy habibi you know?
it means 1 love , true boy till the end
use to chill in his pad and sniff a onion of coke to the head
until he got knocked, 15 to life , asked me to ring it
just to get rid of his immigrant flow and live a free life
but that wasn't for me , even if he gave me massive gees
i had shit of my own, problems unfold , if they send him
back to morocco i will never know
So let me see you roll it, walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it, as your facing it all
now it was my turn to be locked in a cell
got knocked by a undercover cop who thought was down
Next thing he says was "Put your hands on your head
and fall to the ground , your under arrest now stop fucking around"
i was doped , had my eyes marijuana smoked
until this day i lack of trust ,
cause shit gets harder before it stays hard
there's prices to pay and drugs cant sell it all
but i handle my own as the years start to grow
inhale what i need and exhale what i don't
right now i stand at the age of 19
with a flow no one owns
cause there's only one me
determination plus risk lies the best in me
seba blading , forever craving words no dictionary can explain to me
this is just a piece to a puzzle called my life , sometimes i give a fuck
other times i roll the dice
So let me see you roll it , walk away from it all
Don't be scared to toke it , as your facing it all
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